EVERYBODY WANTED TO GO VIRAL

Everybody wanted to go viral
until it became infectious
before hugs were not dangerous
when handshakes were still courteous
Everybody wanted to go viral
when kids were playing at the playground
it was then glorious
All the busy traffic
and crowded sidewalks
those were all tedious
Everybody wanted to go viral
and then the sickness came along
touches and beaches are now longed
Everybody wanted to go viral
but now Mom and Dad are home
though still are on their phones
churches and mosques are now closed
stores and roads are parts of dead town

Life Is Scary

Life is scary, one day you wake up feeling like you can take over the world, and the next day you wake up feeling like all you want to do is lay in bed and hide from everything. People walk into your life, grab your hand, and lead you into the most beautiful path you've ever known, yet sometimes the same people let go of your hand with no warning , and you become stranded at a place where you never thought you would feel lost.

Let's be honest, sometimes everything is going so great and it seems like nothing could go wrong. But right when you begin to think that, something so horrible comes crashing down and all of sudden more problems come ricocheting around you, and you just feel so hopeless because it feels so bad, so fricking [excuse my language] shitty!

It's so hard to understand why such things happen in life, and I personally wish I had an answer to that "why" you always ask yourself. But all I can say is that no matter how hard life gets, you have to keep going.

The life around you will never stop going on, and sometimes that makes me feel a bit worried and it gives me anxiety because all I can think is "will I be able to keep up? what if everything goes too fast?'

Foul

You did me wrong
I wrote a song
The sparks were gone
I put up, I held on
I did you wrong
You sold a song
The sparks were gone
You then moved on

Please love me.

Please love me,
For I'll be right next to you at 3am
when you wake up from a nightmare
Please love me,
For I'll hold your hands tight
when the world is crumbling around our feet
Please love me,
Love me , love me.
Love me like a flower blooms
on the first day of spring
Love me like a child
chasing after an ice cream truck
at the park tirelessly
Please love me,
Love me like you'll die tonight.

Anyone can suffer from mental illness.

Having to deal with depression and anxiety or any mental illness in general in a place full of ignorance who view mental health issue as a simple craziness or laziness is extremely difficult.  This is because society in general has stereotyped views about mental illness and how it affects people. Many people believe that mentally ill are violent and dangerous, when in fact we are more at risk of being attacked or harming ourselves than harming other people.
"Mental illness" Two words that cause people to cast judgement  or turn away. Especially here, in Indonesia, thousands of mentally ill individuals are in chains. It's a place where some still view the mentally ill as lacking in faith or being possessed by demons. Families will consult with local shamans instead of doctors, or hire religious leaders to conduct exorcisms to clean the curses and demons from the spirits of the mentally ill.
I am beyond tired of hearing people call out the mentally ill individuals , and bluntly tell us to get over it, or just simply "have faith".
Not to mention that it's so difficult to go and ask for professional help because majority of people will most likely judge and it's just not at all helping.
Someone who suffers from depression is sometimes seen as a normal and happy person. They don't reach out because they are aware of what people are most likely going to tell them, and suicide seems to be the only way to overcome their distress. What I am going to say is, that if you by any chances see someone suffering from any form of depressions, or is in need of extra love, please be kind to them. If they tell you they're depressed, tell them it's okay to feel what they're feeling, it's okay to feel not okay, it's okay to seek for help and tell them that it will not last forever, even if it doesn't feel that way. Tell them to hang in there for a little bit longer and be there for them. Never call them out for complaining, you'll never know how hard it is for them to be tough and not to end their lives.

New year new me

So many people I met last year
Everything wasn't going so well
Not even a day I survived
Days have passed

Hold me close
Emptiness is killing
Lord is watching
People are dying

INNOCENT KISS : CHAPTER 2

That was so intense , i was completely engaged with his face, lips , body , and mind. “What’s wrong with me?”,  i kept asking myself as he began bitting my lower lip, gently suck on it that i couldn’t deny it felt so good. 

He stopped for a second and smiled, while i was still in shock. It didn’t take long until i had another crazy desire to kiss him again , and i did. I started to love thrusting my lips against a pair of soft thin lips of his, i slowly put my hands on his face, caressing every inches of it. 

I could see how much he loved it , i caressed the back of his head , pulled him closer , sucked and nibbled on his bottom lip, he took a second to stopped, pulled himself off and moaned my name. What?

Yes , he moaned my name and that was cute , in a way that it turned me on even more. I looked at him and smiled, and out of the blue thought that i should do something more, “ i want more!”, my inner succubus shouted.Sparks of desire light up in my stomach, and the kiss got deeper. His hands moved down from my neck to my waist and my body arched towards him, i didn’t pull away, i enjoyed the kiss.

We spent the rest of the day with each others, neither of us expected today would turn out this way. His mind was blown away by my kisses , while mine was challenged to step up the game , forget about the world and do whatever i want. Yet , i felt the guilt sink deep in my stomach and it made my moral compass spin in ways it never has. "What have i done?" i had to keep questioning my moral throughout the trip back home , and on the other hand he sat right next to me, peacefully driving his car like nothing happened. [to be continued]